so this is what it comes to

i don't know why i'm surprised

it's all so fucking textbook and i should've realized

that i am nothing more and nothing less than

ordinary love lorn girls

who practice crashing into walls

they build around their hearts

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i wonder what you think of me

i hope i'd be surprised

i don't know why i care so much someday i hope i realize

that "nothing ventured, nothing gained" 

applies to all the times i've ever

thought that i was risking love

when i was really unavailable

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and you were sure to let me go

when things got inconvenient

you were sure to make like 

i'm the only one who crossed the line

i was sure to try and push you deeper further into it

we were sure to draw towards each other in the wrong time

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i feel like i'm addicted

so i put you on the shelf

but i'm still spinning fantasies

like this one i like to tell myself:

you call me up and i'm a bitch but

then you're breathless, telling me 

you cannot live without my love

another day it's just impossible

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and you were sure to let me go

when things got inconvenient

you were sure to make like 

i'm the only one who crossed the line

i was sure to try and push you deeper further into it

and it is sure to make me crazy knowing you are doing fine

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so this is what it comes to

i don't know why i'm surprised

it's all so fucking textbook and i should've realized

that you were nothing more and nothing less than

ordinary love lorn men

who have their cake and eat it too

while crumb collectors go on scavenging

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and you were sure to let me go

when things got inconvenient

you were sure to make like 

i'm the only one who crossed the line

i was sure to try and push you deeper further into it

we were sure to draw towards each other in the wrong time

 

 

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